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Last Sunday, I forced my mate Wendy to meet me coz i need a shoulder to cry on to but i was lucky… instead of one shoulder i have been blessed with one more extra shoulder to cry on to hahahaha… i didnt expect Grace to show up at Maluri Jaya Jusco last sunday. If only Fiona could make it last weekend, it would have been a jack pot to me. Anyway, she has done her best by comforting me over the phone which was a huge relief.

Last weekend day out was all about me. Concerning my future and my heart. Love you guys so much!!!!!

The next day, ive got temperature and had been on medical leave for 2 days. Perhaps due to my messy head i fell ill. uhh…

today suppose to be my mom’s bday and this coming 21st is the date i hate the most through out the year. my last bday present that i bought for my mom is still with me… life has been so lonely since you’ve gone mama…

Life doesnt always turn out the way we’ve planned but it must goes on no matter how hard you have to face the world, no matter how nasty the situation will be and no matter how cruel the atmosphere will be… Thats life and its true like what my fren say… life sucks but you must learn to love your life. Its all about life… life… life…

You want to be important to someone and you want to be in someone’s life. Incessantly you will keep on asking yourself why good things never happen in your life and incessantly you will keep on asking yourself why must you keep on crying when you feel so weak, left out and neglected. Honey you will never get the answer coz only god knows the truth.

You fell in love with someone is not wrong but it is wrong if its not meant to be yours. it such a pain coz you need him more than anything else in this world hoping this love could help you to ease the pain and sorrow you have carry on upon your shoulder for so long. to make all the loneliness that has been filling in your life for years fade away and wishing that this love could brighten up your darkest life. Let it be…. Paksaan tidak membawa kebahagiaan

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I’d Send You All That I’m Thinking Of……..Baby

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You’re All I’m Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You

1. Ofcourse, my sacred ground (c**b**t). It was a must to me and me mates to go there every Sunday. It was amazing how determine we were to wake up as early as half 6 on Sunday morning in a cold winter. Sometimes, It was totally rubish but we simply love it ;p

2. During lunch hour i will go to a shop next to my office building to buy a sandwich and a cup of soup. They made a really tasty soup, I must say thumbs up folks for the delicious soup!

3. A place called Cheshire Oaks… If you crave for shopping heaven. You MUST go to this place. It was mad because where can you get a pair of jeans from GAP for only 5.99 and a cap from Elle at a price of just One pound each. Crazy mannn…. A brand new clark shoes for only ten pound and buy one free one some more. Im sweating…

4. I must say, I miss fetching Danisha from school. Everyday, i will fetch her and she will tell me about her day at school in the car. aaahh… miss her coz she is cute.she is my friend’s daughter, kak Ucu.what an adorable girl….

5. My friends Afzan, Faten, Mehreen, Snowy, all my Indonesian friends and my supervisors Donna, Brian and John. My lovely dearly former lecturer Puan Mahiran… i was told that she is now expecting a baby. I miss her sons Irfan and Syahmi.Now im sad

6. My English friend did ask me a question last time what i like most about England. I told him, I love the weather hahaha… you know what he said to me? he said that i was crazy for loving their gloomy weather. Msia panas OK!

7. I remember my Botak!!! hehehe botak…botak… i heard he has brought a brand new BMW. cayalah!

8. Wonder what happen to my Kuda Belang. Dont judge a book by its cover. the highest velocity i drove can reach up to 170miles/hr ok…

9. I miss PPD. I love my job because its flexible, i can start anytime i want as long as i complete my hours. I dont think i can find better place than PPD.

10. Before i left UK, I went to York and Scarborough with me mates Dee, Nani and Zep. It was the best trip ive ever had and i miss those moment when we were there.

I want to go back to UK!!!!!!!

I went to my friend’s wedding(IZWAH) in Seremban last weekend,alone. I guess it’s not too late for me to congrat her and her spouse, Sam.Actually, i have no idea how to get there but with a brilliant map in hand, i will never get lost. I wonder whether she includes any ‘pau’ in her hantaran hahaha…. Perhaps only we know the hidden story behind the word ‘pau’ hahaha

Looking back the time when we first met through Mike Cremin’s boring and clueless class but indeed we shall thanked him for that bcoz we wouldn’t have met without him. Remember the Teh Tarik kaw kaw i gave you that made you to the loo. Thanked god, you manage to find that ‘miracle bottle’ :p

Im glad that you did enjoy my first-ever-car the unforgetable Integra. Hey! Jez tell me where you want to go i will definitely drive you to the place you wish for… especially our sacred ground (C**b**t hahahahaaaa) What could have been better than a hot coffee in the coolest ever winter in the morning jez to explore our sacred ground. Beb! what ever it is… you are the best navigator i’ve ever had. The best map reader of all in Old Trafford.

Yat-E the Santa

Today, I wanna talk about my bestfriend Mimi. We’ve been friends since we were 15 years old and i do cherish all the tears and laughters we shared ever since. Now, she is married with two adorable kids and im still being me always lose my sense of direction. Im glad that she met a sweet bloke and most important thing, he loves her very very much, which in my opinion she deserves it more than anyone for all the obsticles she went through.

Mimi, thank you for being such a good friend and for being there when i needed someone most. Especially, the day when i lost my beloved mom but i feel bad coz i cant be there for you when you lost your dad and to be there with you during your wedding too. I wish i could undo the time and share all the tears and laughters with you.

Today, i feel sad coz you have gone to Sabah and i have to travel miles away to see you

You will always be my best mate coz u rock!

Yesterday, I went to Jalan Kuari Cemetery alone to visit my late mom’s grave. Since i came back to M’sia, yesterday was the first time i went there after so long. My eyes were clowded with tears because i miss her so bad. All of the sudden, i feel so lonely and neglected. That was when i decided to go to her grave. I hate going to her grave because it made me realize how sucks and terrible my life is. That is one of the reason why i stop going to her grave.

I was having difficulties to find her grave for i havent been there for nearly 5 years, i guess. It took me nearly 2 hours to find the grave with the help of the undertaker nearby. He said something to me that really touch my heart. He said "dia nk kau jumpa dia,kalau dia tak nk..  kau cari lar sampai 5 jam pun takkan jumpa." Then only it came to my senses that all these time, many of my family members failed to find  my mom’s grave for no reason. Until yesterday, i was the first person managed to find her grave.

I cant stop my tears from flooding while reciting yassin to her. My heart is so fragile that i cant bare any broken heart. it broke my heart yesterday and that is  why i was avoiding my self from going there. On this coming 21st ,it has been 11 years she had had passed away. Al-Fatihah..