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it was my stupidest mistake that should not be forgiven for picking up the bloody phone and rang someone that i must not called. what made me so determine to ring him? I have been such a fool of my own feelings and i went mad for missing him so much. Knowing him so happy with his life now with his beloved wife and knowing his excitement of having his first baby soon end of this year, made me want to burst into tears. tears of my happiness ofcourse.

i felt bad to answer his question when he asked about my relationship. How was i suppose to tell him that i was still madly in love with him. how hard i tried to move on and find someone to replace him in my heart and how eager for me to say this to him proudly that ‘im getting marry soon with someone who loves and cares about me sooooo much and most important thing i love him too’ i wish! Sorry i failed to fulfill ur wish to find that someone.

i wish him having the happiest time ever in his life and i’l pray… pray that god will alwiz bless his life with lotsa lotsa love and prosperiety.

13 years has past but my feelings to him never fade. i must be mad for living my life like this. Fiona, Wendy and Grace thanks for all your supports over these years to me.

im beginning to feel the pain living in malaysia. i went to buy some groceries near my home. can u imagine few things i bought cost me nearly RM70, gosh! i miss UK. i wanted to buy baked bean but i have to think twice before buying it coz RM3.90 for a can of baked beans was absolutely mad!!!! i should have had these feelings earlier but haha… bizarre coz only yesterday i started to realise it.