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today we left house around half 10 wif lotsa foods n drinks as usual heading towards smithhills for the horse riding. the journey was find until a patrol car stopped rizwan’s car. nothing serious happened but they did spoil our enthusiasm for our small picnic.

awais was reli excited to go to the farm for the horse riding. the smell at the farm was reli horrible hahahaaa… we were looking fwd to feed the sheeps like they said in the website but it was dissapointedto see dat nothing much activities we can do thr except for the horse riding. we jez walked around the place n enjoyed the fresh smell of the farm huhu. still, we managed to see some animal kept thr in the barn like the sheeps, snake, pig, cow n hehe.. the rest i dun know wot it called hahahaha… so stupid n clueless huhu

then, we decided to go to somewhr else bcoz it was too early to go home n some more there were still plenty of food we brought havent finished yet. therefore, we made up our mind to go to the gulliver’s world but half way to the place. the cloud turned black n the rain started to pouring down on my windscreen. change of plan again.

anyway, though things din go the way we planned but we did enjoy the short moment at the farm. insya allah, we’ll plan something else in the future… insya allah.

this sunday the 25th, i have made a plan of going to the farm wif me frenz nisa, rizwan, k.mumtaz, ibrahim n not forgetting the kidz. at the same time we’re gonna bring some food for the picnic. it’s gonna b fun thr. cant hardly wait now. nisa n  her sister (k.mumtaz) will do the cooking. as for me, jez bring my perut along hahahahaaa…

it was my school re-union last weekend. gosh! cant belive my self dat it has been 10yrs alredi. not all of my batch came dat day including me but stil im sure those who came dat day must have enjoyed themselves n had time of their life time. though some of them ive last seen probably 10 yrs ago like brian lee, chris, kok fai, sabrina, sharazat, nick, farah jamil n well… too many to mention it here but we do still keep in touch wif everybody. wish dat i can invite all of my batch to my wedding yg tak tau biler coz no candidates yet! hehe… it jez dat i miss the old days reli. how wacky my batch was n stubborn some more. can barely remember how strong we worked as a team when we were in form 2 n someone got busted wif the XXX movie. it was amazing to see all of us went foward together to plead guilty until our beloved encik mokhtar(the principle) reli speachless.huhu  how wicked! i wonder wot happen to si cekak tu.. hehe n also cikgu sidek ( sidekman). remember a yr after we left school, mimi, juju azu n i went to fazidah’s house for hari raya. it happened to be her house was near to the sidekman n gosh! how nasty they were to tell him dat after visiting fazidah we wud go to his house later which we never did. wonder wot happened to him dat day. oh! ya, i alwiz keep in touch wif my eco teacher (cikgu… god! forgot her name) but since i left msia which i believe she never knew dat i went away i have not kept myself updated wif her. one thing bout the re-union thingy rite. wudn’t it be gud if our teachers cud make it to the gathering instead of all of us. it wud have been more fun.

well, dats all for now. tara!

last weekend wendy, phoebe and cheong wei came to mcr and it was horibbly gud to have them around. the best part of all!!! i can speak kantonis almost all the time, miss to speak kantonis like the old days so much. i took them around the city centre and also liverpool. need to highlight something too… i got the chance to drive convertible car heheheeee… siokkkkk wooooo.. if only i can drive it at motorway, definitely got carried away one. huhu

ystdy also, i happened to know something from wendy which was reli important to my life in general and to my love life in specific. only after 11 yrs i get to know dat the guy dat i loved with all my heart and soul when i was in school… he liked me too! she kept the secret bcoz she promised someone not to tell anyone. hmm… i forgive u then. he din dare to make the move bcoz of reputation and he scared dat he mite lose all his frenz. therefore, he decided to choose his frenz over me. it’s a bit sad to hear dat but dat wot is so called life! now i understand and get the whole picture of wot had happened. the way he looked into my eyes dat particular morning and everytime our eyes met. we liked each other…. damn! i was rite all these while dat he liked me too but i left school wif bad reputation bcoz of him. i wish i can hate him but i jez cant and i wonder why???

i’ve got tears in my eyes coz i tot all these while he hated me and that tot is killing me from inside. now i know the truth dat he had considered me b4 to be his, dats more than enuf. he’s married now and i wish him happy though i wasted almost 10 yrs waiting for him but the truth i know ystdy was enuf and now if i die tomorrow.. i can die in peace.

may allah gif all the strength left in me for me to survive another day… u has been part of my life for more than a decade and u will alwiz will. i will alwiz remember u and only god knows how much i love and care bout u. ur happiness is my happiness.

i’m in the deep s**t. dun know why but i keep on messing things up when it comes to nisa n rizwan. it’s not dat i cannot keep a secret but i jez forget which one i shud keep it as a secret and which one is not. how am i suppose to know dat it is a secret when no body ever warns me not to tell him bout it. gosh! like alwiz i tend to forget dat rizwan is thr and i will simply.. nisa how bout bla…bla… and the next thing i know i’m receiving this weird reception dat goes straight to my brain saying i wanna kill u yati.hahahaha sori once again nisa. who ever read my blog must be wondering wots going on and none of u will ever understand wot had happened. its husband n wife lil’ secret and i’m jez a  small bush messing them up in between hehehe ( on second thoughts.. errr am i small?? ;p  )

as usual i keep on saying to me frenz dat i’m flying off to msia very.. very soon but as usual i keep on changing my plan again and again until further notice hehe.. but at least i stil have the heart to step back to the place i left which i think demand me to have full courage to go back home. its not that i’m scared to face my past but it jez i’m having real gud fun over here in uk. having here with me, people which i treated them like my own family and my best frenz of all. swear to god dat i never forget anyone in msia but as time goes by people come and people go, u’ve jez got to move on. no matter how u hate it so bad to move on but u left with no option. its either u stay and u die or u move on and u’l survive. i longed to have him by my side but if its written dat we’re not meant for each other wot else can i do. i heard someone said to me, wot ever happen in ur life it is for ur own gud nothing more than dat. if u force it to happen u may regret it someday for making dat huge ever decision in ur life and it turns out to be a mistake, at this very crucial of time i keep on saying to my self to think and use my brain but not my heart. anyway, i’m jez human and i cant run from making mistake and all i can do now is to learn from my mistake and start to move on. may allah alwiz be with me.. aminnnn..

yesterday was absolutely amazing day for me. got the chance to meet my dear sui poh hehee(wendy). my gosh! cant believe that it has been almost 3 yrs since we last met each other. though the journey to london  yesterday was quite expensive but i think its worth with every each penny invested huhu… basically i know it was my mistake  for not doing the booking earlier. my last minute habit gotta stop immediately. 57quid and dat sui poh wasted my precious time in london by being an hour late. ;p

it was a tiring journey for me bcoz i spent 3 hrs in the train to london and another 3 hrs on the way back to manchester. gosh! i spent 6 hrs in the train alone yesterday???

i even received a gift from wendy and shame on me for not getting anything for her heheheeee… dun wori ok, i can alwiz post ur gift anytime hehehee..

miss her alredi : (