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i’ve been so depressed lately wif work, life and arghhh!!! so many things. today, i received a news dat reli make me smile and cheer up my life a bit. hmmm… not a bit but quite a lot huhu..

my sister is having her 3rd child. me wif the title auntie, wot the heck as long as i am young at heart hahahaaa..

next weekend, i have made a plan wif me bud wendy to go to paris. i’ve alwiz wanted to go thr but never tot dat i wud end up going 2 paris wif my lovely sui poh(heheheeee… nowaday, u changed hoh!! so cheeky. wait ah lei kek sei ngor ah… wait huh..) i admit dat i am xcited going to paris but i think my excitement is more to meet my dear fren wendy. it has been nearly 3 yrs since we last met. gosh! now i feel old… reli old. my i’m sure i’m younger than my sui pohz(wendy, fiona and grace ;p)

well, i hope things will go smooth and easy going thr. keep my fingers crossed lar.

this weekend, i have to do all my unfinished business. no choice or i will end up dragging it all till end of the yr haha.. better not. i need to book my ticket to go to london. i’m going to stay at k.ana’s apartment. mannnn… miss her so much, though we alwiz have conversation over the phone in the middle of the nite but it is not same like u see dat person rite infront of ur face. i learnt so much thing bout audit life through her. tq for giving me dat horrendous and horrible feeling b4 i get my self involved into a huge mess. working in london does open up ur eyes huh! london is a place u wanna live in but once u become part of londoners ur biggest and scariest nite mare begin hehehe..

ok lar , cannot write so much as i need to continue wif my work here. talk to u guys again soon. bubbye to my sad and lonely life. gotta move on no matter how hard it is. dun miss the train hehe

yat-e rock!

u will never appreciate anything until u lose them. when u realised it, it’s probably too late and there’s nothing else u can do to re-gain ur lost. u will end up regretting ur lost but it wont get u anywhr. the misery will haunting u for the rest of ur life and tears will be ur best of frenz.

all these while, i have never appreciated him. having him in my life was only for the sake of having someone rather than not having anyone at all. whenever i felt sad or lonely, i would ring him and he was my shoulder to cry on. though he was tired and it was 3o’clock in the morning… he never failed to entertain me. he was so sweet to me that i wouldn’t change him for anything in this world. these few days make me realized that i miss him so bad. everytime i go to sleep, i wish i would have had him in my dream. everytime the phone rings, i wish it would have been him calling or messaging me. at the end of the day, i realized that i have lost him and i dunno wot to do to get him back to be part of my life again.

i know it’s too late but i reli love u and it hurts me so bad for not having u here with me and to realize that i have lost u!

honestly, the only thing i can think of now is going back to msia. i miss everybody especially…. whatever lar kan.. my life is full of sh** at the moment and i am bloody tired. i cant barely open my eyes as early as 9pm. gosh!

i’ve been here in manchester for more than 2yrs. within these 2 yrs, so many sweet and bitter memories happened to me life. ppl come and ppl go. love strucked then destroyed. my heart’s broken into million pieces and there’s no way i can mend it now. honesty, loyalty, betrayal and jealousy are part of our life. there will never be live happily ever after like in the fairy tales which i wish to happen to me. confussion is all over me. sometimes i ask my self over and over again wot do i want in life and never get the answer. probably i’m being to complicated and trying so hard to coupe my self living in this sophisticated life. wanna be wot i wanna be but never give my chance to be wot i wanna be coz i keep on losing my track. no more songs to sing, no more tears to cry only memories to hold till death do us part.

i’ve been real jerk to someone who is meant so much in my life. i feel pity to my self for missing him like crazy. thought i was strong and he’s not important to me at all but the truth is i cant live without him. since u’ve gone u took away my laughters and happiness. wanna be so close to u and if only u forgive me… k

this morning b4 going to work, i made up my mind wif a huge decision and it is vital for me to make sure dat i wont change my mind again. i reli surprised everyone at work wif my brand new image. i dun know why all of a sudden i feel like i’m redi to start wearing hijjab. i guess there’s time for everybody.

these few days, i’ve been reli bz working. i have not enuf sleep and the praying time at this moment make my condition even worst.can u imagine how is it like having maghrib at nearly 9pm and isyak at 11pm. the best part subuh is as early as 3am. gosh! i feel like i jez fell asleep when my alarm started to crack my brain wif its annoying sound teng! teng! teng! i kept on going 2 the loo at the office bcoz i can barely open my eyes. damn! even a cup of thick coffee can’t help me.

has anyone of u ever had this thought of human right. we had this hot topic as our dicussion during  break. mixing around wif dr( i mean phd students not the who works at the hospital huhu) does open up my brain widely, not only focusing on the topic fashion and celebrity all the times,;p