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my life is turning upside down. i wish u wud say no 2 me when i said i want this relation no more. i wish u wud fight for it so that it will stay longer but … not sure of me?well, cannot blame u for that coz we’re miles away. i wanna run to u if i could … give me time to settle my things over here darl n i will make it up to u.

i am exhausted as i have not having my sleep for 3 days alredi. it’s bothering me a lot thinking dat i mite lose u. damn! hate it if it happens.

i went to trafford centre ystdy wif me fren faten. well, i found a dress which i think i look ehem..ehem..perasan siut … not only me but faten think it too, u can ask her if u dun believe me. hahaha.. i am looking fwd to wear the dress and u can see it clearly on my face how excited i am to go to the dinner and perform. as usual everybody keeps on reminding me not to get panic if someone wants to give me flower.. thanks lae for reminding me huhu.

today, i went to terence and paul to have my hair cut. i jez trimmed my hair a bit. after this i’m going to have my eye check at the didsbury village. mannn.. i am tired wif appointments today.

as usual, miss me darl so much. reli want to talk to u darl

i’m worried bout my throat coz the day to perform is comin’ soon but i’m havin’ sore throat, cough and runnin’ nose. god!! hope things will be orait by the time to do the performance. i’m getting panic each day coz i am silly. hehe..

went to the material shop wif nisa today. it was chucking down but still we insist to go. huhu.. i have to wash my fav shoes, my pinky is dirty now.

wot is going on wif us?

u’re gonna lose me bcoz of ur pride but i cant do anything if u dun trust me. when i said i gave u my heart.. my life.. i reli meant wot i said. u’re not sure of me then wot can i do??? i never questioned u when u alwiz hang out wif gurls.. havin’ gurl photos dat look like ur gurl(???)

why?????

if only u can hear my heart beat dup..dup..dup..dup..

8th of april i’ll be performing and about to make my self like a fool on the stage in ireland(hope i’m not) heheheeee… takut nyer. seriously, it has been 2 yrs since my last performance on stage when i was still in msia. i was struggling to find the rite song since there’s not much choice of songs here in UK not like in msia whr we can get the minus one everywhr.

finally, i made up my mind to sing kelly clarkson song because of you and i dedicate this song to the organizer dee … hehehehheheheeee u love this song, do you?

miss u both(dee n nani) so much and cant wait to see u guys. muaahhhhh..

hehehee… last thursday was absolutely my day bcoz  i’ve got two most wanted things in my list. a new mobile and mp3 player. thks to nisa bcoz i got my birthday present one month in advance. heheheeee. i din sleep that nite coz mengadap that two things i got. heheheeee… heheheeee… cannot stop smilin’. nisa i reli love that mp3 player that u bought for me. thank u so much!! eh! lupa plak nak say thanks to org yg byr sekali.. to rizwan too =) huhu

finally.. from one promise to another promises i’m finally going to ireland early next month. i booked my ticket alredi on the 5th and gonna fly back to mcr on the 11th the following week. huhu.. i’m gonna perform thr heheheheee…sioknyer. after 2 yrs honestly i am not pretty sure whether i can sing that gud as ppl expect me to sing. well… keep ur fingers crossed!

neway, the best part of all gonna see my two fav gurls thr hehehehe dee n nani. miss u both so much muuuuaaaaaahhhhhh…

damn..damn…damn…

it’s gonna be snowing soon and it says in the news today that the snow is gonna be like 10 inches deep. the first thing came into my mind was… how the heck am i gonna go to work then??? there’s no way i’m going to drive i that kinda weather. when i came back from office ystdy, it was bloody cold wif hailstorm chucking down. as a result, i’ve got running nose, cough and feel like i’m  going to catch a cold. my whole body is aching and that makes me wanna go to bed and sleep all nite long ( sebenarnyer malas hahahahaha).

tomorrow is gurl-day-out for me, nisa, sadia and nazia to trafford centre. we’re going to celebrate nisa’s birthday at nando’s. tell u guys bout the lunch in the next report ok!

what a life i’ve been through rite now???? rizwan and nisa keep on makin’ fun bout me and that guy i told ya’. the lad who falls for me at the office. damn! i keep on laughing bout it. pity me for being clown and joke of the year waaaaaaaaa…..

i woke up quite late today as it is sunday … heheheheeee… pemalas lar aku nie. neway, so many things happened to me over this week. the sad news i received till the most shocking news of the century. missing so many ppl back home and also lookin’ fwd to go home soon( wonder when will it be??)

today is my niece’s birthday farah diyanah. waaaaa… miss my little darl. auntie going to buy some thing for u ok honey but heheheeeee.. must wait until ur auntie gets home hahahahaaa… kesiannyer anak sedara aku nie.

as usual, after i finished work i will straight away go to nisa’s and then i will go home around 9. last wednesday, i received a note left on me windscreen. i tot i got ticket for illegal parking but actually it was a note received from me secret admirer. it was raining dat day and i was in hurry to go home. so i jez threw it away and in fact, i dun reli bother bout the note. the note written ‘ u’re such a pretty chick’. hahahahaaa.. i laughed like hell coz who the heck is so blind for saying that i was pretty. he left me wif big question marks.  i told nisa bout it and i told her that he must be english hahahahahaaa.

the  question keeps on playing in my mind..who??? ystdy, all the question that has been playing in my mind has been revealed. i have never worked on saturday coz it is so crucial to make myself to wake up as early as 6am to go to work but ystdy i somehow managed to wake up at 6. i arrived at ppa bout quarter past 7. it was only me wif another lad. i waited outside the office to clock in. i was half asleep that time and kept on yawning ( god knows how many..many times alredi). then a lad came to me and the only word i could barely heard was i wud even marry u if u want to marry me. hillarious but managed to control myself not to laugh. it was half 7 in the morning, wot u expect me to say???? gosh! i jez told him that i appreciate it so much and i was speechless. time to break the news to nisa… i text her and to my hillarious moment i said to her that it wasnt english but someone from nigeria.hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha i knew that i was gonna be in trouble. the first thing came into my mind was that i am pretty sure that rizwan wud make this into joke of the life time. as i tot b4, he said to me that i am now an international gurl kahkahkaaaahhhhhhh… damn!

enuf bout the news of the century, i moved on now to another story bout me fren sadia. she was admitted to hospital last week and reli worried bout her. i rushed to the hospital to give her a visit and reli glad coz she is now ok. u take care sadia. nisa n i reli cheer her up when we went to the hospital. hospital is reli depressing, rite???..

jez now, rizwan and nisa went to tesco. they left me wif the kids. of all the times in the world haider did his number two at this very crucial time when mummy is not around. gosh! we were jez dicussing the nite b4 bout me never ever going to wash kids doing their number two. now, haider has broken the record of my life time. i wanted to wait for them but haider keeps on crying and i have no other option rather than to wash him… waaaaaaa……… it has been years i havent put on kids their clothes. u cant imagine how i put on haider’s hahahhahahaaaa… my training day to become a mom. huhu

latest news bout the weather here, it’s gonna be snowing through out the week. gosh! how am i ever going to work now???? time to take more and more photos..yeahhhhhhhh!!!! gigam( gila gambar)

that’s all guys.. talk to u again some other time

my life was absolutely fine until i received a shocking n horrible news from a fren of mine. it was amazing to get the chance to chat wif my old buddies( fiona n wendy) after long time since we last met each other. we used to hang out together n cherish the moment to lari from school and heading to town( dah abis pmr time tu heheheeeee.. so takde kelas).. maaannnnnnn… miss u guys very much! fiona, i guess u must b regretting urself for telling me the news. i’m trying to get over it but stil cannot run away from the fact that my heart is now torn apart into million n even zillion pieces waaaaaaaaaa……. i wish him to have de best of time of his life. i will move on wif my life like he told me many..many times before but it jez too hard to tell lies to urself that it’s all over. i guess.. it has come to an end. must stick to the real world.

it was snowing outside while i was driving back from office. i was a bit frighten to drive during snowy day bcoz of the incident happened to me last time. dun want to think bout it again. no more snow seeking! definitely… the traffic was a bit congested but managed to get to nisa’s on time to take some pic heheheheeeee… like me fren izwah n bad alwiz said gigam(gila gambar). we took lotsa picture n it was owesome. we even played snow balls outside, at the back garden. the view was extremely n horribly fabulous. i was so excited in the car while driving coz i can see it clearly the snow falls down on the ground. hehheheee this is not my first time but the feelings will alwiz be the first time when it comes to snow. wicked!!!

yat-e rock!